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I’ve been missing the feeling when we close up the gaps between us
For myself, a record of the Frank Turner shows I have attended. Real, real bummed that as of now his closest show in 2024 is at Boston Calling. I don’t like the idea of music festivals, they feel overwhelming. Also, it is too expensive. Also, it’s Memorial Day weekend and Panteria will always win. Lost… Continue reading
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You can get pretty good at feeling pretty bad
I didn’t make it very far into January on my “picture every day” project, but in my defense I got COVID. On Sunday January 7 I felt like shit – I was freezing cold, like in my bed with the electric blanket turned up to 10 and still could not get warm. So I knew… Continue reading
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I almost believe that the pictures are all I can feel
Way back in 2008 I attempted to do a “take a photo every day” challenge. I still have those photos, they are largely not good and I only made it until February 8. I have decided to try it again this year, for reasons I can’t fully explain. I know that one of the issues… Continue reading
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Intention
Well it’s January 1. Every post on social media lately seems to have been about how 2023 was such a horrible year, and it kind of was, but was it any worse than the preceding horrible years? I don’t know. I don’t remember the last time I reached December 31 and thought “what a good… Continue reading
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Anxiety anxiety, you give me no mercy
For the past week or so I have been having anxiety attacks every single day. I feel like I am just white knuckling it to get through. No one knows this. It is not externally obvious when this is happening to me and I haven’t told anyone for ??? reasons. Yesterday I took one of… Continue reading
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Pennsic 50 – The Woods Battle
The fighters and fencers of the East Kingdom in the SCA refer to the Pennsic woods as church. I never really understood it. Then, back in 2019, I was retaining for our queen during the heavy battle, and just being in those woods, seeing the fighters, feeling the energy – it started to click, and… Continue reading
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Pennsic 50 – Peace Week
I wish I had found the time and brain space to blog while I was actually at Pennsic, because now that I am sitting here trying to tell the stories, they are all a jumble. So this may be less a cohesive blog post and more a collection of random thoughts. Because it wouldn’t be… Continue reading
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Pennsic 50 – Arrival
I’m going to try and get a few blog posts in while I’m here at Pennsic but realistically this may be the only one – there is always so much to do, so many people to see, so little time. We left home on Saturday morning and drove to Buffalo – the drive was uneventful… Continue reading
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Now you’re just somebody that I used to know
Last night I discovered that a friend of 15+ years has blocked me on Facebook. We had a disagreement and haven’t spoken since October, so this isn’t completely “out of nowhere” – while also feeling like it is, because after all these months, why the sudden finality of not just unfriending but blocking? I don’t… Continue reading
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Is this thing on?
Recently over on Mastodon I saw a post for something called Blaugust – a month long event to encourage people to blog more. I haven’t been blogging at all in a very long time, but reading about this has pushed me to stop thinking about doing it and actually start something up. Unfortunately as the… Continue reading
About Me
Goth, SCAdian, Warcraft player. Embracing the power of not caring what people think.